One Week Since Andrew Yang Suspended His Campaign

It’s safe to say that a lot of Yang Gang are experiencing a range of emotions ever since Andrew Yang suspended his presidential campaign. I know he had good reason to do so but still, a lot of us are feeling a certain type of way about it. We all feel like we’re in limbo or something, wondering what’s going to happen next.

For one, I’ve never given a crap about politics…EVER. Not until Andrew Yang entered the scene. And a lot of people who follow him now say the exact same thing.

Many people (mostly Yang Gang) are still hoping that he would unsuspend his campaign but at this point, it doesn’t seem that way. Per his final Nevada townhall a few days after suspending, he does plan on announcing something within the next two to six weeks though.

Over the weekend, I watched this 2 hour long YouTube video of Paget Kagy interviewing Dr. Quintus Jett and there are a lot of valuable insights as to what happened to Andrew Yang’s campaign and what could still happen, which is why I got excited about the possibility of Andrew Yang rebooting his campaign because Dr. Jett broke it down in such a way that sounded like it was still very possible – reboot the campaign not to win as president but to simply continue letting people know about his Freedom Dividend / Universal Basic Income.

The Freedom Dividend – giving $1000 to every American over the age of 18 with no strings attached – is what initially attracted me to Andrew Yang. My friend called it a handout. And while it probably sounds that way, I know plenty of people who would love to receive that $1000 a month.

Finally, a plan that actually gives something to people – money in their hands to do whatever they want with it.

Needless to say, I’ve been obsessed all week since the campaign suspension; I’ve been watching videos on YouTube and just trying to understand what worked and what didn’t. A lot of us (myself included), donated to Andrew Yang’s campaign whether it was time, money, effort. I donated money, which is something I’ve never done before. That’s how much I believed in Andrew Yang’s message.

While the whole experience of following Andrew Yang’s political journey is a personal choice, I also see it as a study in marketing, advertising, psychology, social media, running fast moving political campaigns and a peek into how mainstream media (MSM) operates.

My thoughts on MSM? They don’t like diversity as much as they claim to. Andrew Yang was blacked out, literally ignored almost every single time MSM would talk about the presidential candidates. He was also given the least amount of speaking time during the debates. It was infuriating to witness over and over and that’s why I think Yang Gang fought even harder for Andrew.

I wrote this down so I can finally be at peace with it and let go of my own expectations, so I guess we’ll see what happens next. I hope to stay engaged just to see what Andrew Yang plans on doing but after this, I might go back to being disengaged in politics unless someone else interesting comes along.


Classes I Want To Take in 2020

The people who know me well know that I like learning new things. The main problem with that is my inconsistency to see things through completion; meaning I have a difficult time finishing things. It happens mostly with books and courses. Like there are so many things I want to do and learn, it’s frustrating that I seem to have zero focus as I literally want to learn everything. That’s what happens when you call yourself a ‘Jack of all trades’ I guess.

I’ve been looking at and considering some classes and programs I want to take for 2020, so I’m saving them here.

Integrative Healing Arts Practitioner

Medical Intuition for Healing Workshop

Mini-MBA: Digital Marketing


Not Posting Is Also A Strategy In Itself

VII of Pentacles from the Albano-Waite Tarot Deck

I noticed something while I was grieving (and I still am) the death of my friend Roxy:

I noticed that people found me online and either:

A) booked an in person healing session with me

B) bought something from my crystal shop

all while I WAS NOT actively promoting or posting for days or for even 2 weeks on Instagram. After my friend passed away, I just didn’t have the same energy for it anymore. I’m in limbo at the moment.

And yet, people still found me.

So what does that mean?

It means that planting seeds and waiting for them to grow still works. Most people don’t see the long game very much, they want instant results. And so they expect to be successful in 6 months or less.

Sometimes I’m still impatient and feel the same. Patience is hard.

Planting seeds is a metaphor for growing your online business or some kind of creative endeavor; you will be spending a lot of time cultivating it with really good content and products. You will spend time caring for it by putting your time and energy into it. But then at some point, you just have to release it and let it go…hang back for a bit and see if your seed planting worked.

And that’s exactly what I did, although it was unexpected.

I did not expect for people to be hitting me up for anything right now. I honestly thought that I would have more time to just sulk, be sad and grieve my friend who I’m missing so much right about now. But the days are moving fast, 2020 is right around the corner and the universe has sent people my way and so I must be in service to them. It must be my Aquarius Ascendant.

So while most digital marketers will tell you to post consistently and a lot, I will say from personal experience: it’s okay to go quiet sometimes, especially when you don’t feel like posting. Don’t force yourself and don’t feel bad that you haven’t posted.

If you planted a good seed, then people should be able to find you. You don’t have to constantly post on Instagram to sell to your followers.


Life Hasn’t Been the SameπŸ’”

I had a very good friend pass away recently. She passed away on Sunday, October 20th but I didn’t find out until Tuesday, October 22nd. Needless to say I haven’t been myself.

Her name was Roxy B. Montoya. We had been friends since 2004 I believe, we met online on a graffiti art forum then became closer friends on MySpace. Then we met in real life in 2006 and we have been best friends ever since. I would go to Las Vegas where she lived to support her art shows, she would come out here with her family to go to Disneyland and also show her art here in LA with her husband Albert.

I miss her terribly. She was only 36 years old and so her death was quite unexpected.

I’m just writing this for myself. To express gratitude for having such an amazing friend. She was loved by everybody, people who have never met Roxy in real life call her their “favorite internet friend”.

I have collected a lot of her art, which I still have.

Here’s an IG story she did for my 2018 birthday & I reposted it:

Dude, I’m missing you a ton. Everyone is. You made everyone feel so special.πŸ’”


Why Don’t I Have a Real Portfolio?πŸ€”

Heart Eyes, Dark Lipstick – Animated GIF by me

At some point, the purpose of this website was to show my portfolio; but that is no longer the case.

I have been working in the adult entertainment industry for almost 10 years now.

I have given up attempting to put up a portfolio for potential employers to see.


After years of trying and not getting responses (fact: most employers aren’t open to you having that kind of work history), I’ve decided to stop trying. This doesn’t mean I’ve given up. It just means that I’ve switched my focus from trying to leave where I am now to just creating stuff that makes me happy.

I’ve come to realize that I am where I’m supposed to be for the time being. But for a few years though – I was getting bored, frustrated, restless, dissatisfied. I really felt that it was time to go. I even got bit by the entrepreneur bug and I tried to leave my job with very little success. I was also offered a raise that I simply could not refuse.

So attempts to quit my job just wasn’t happening…I guess I was forcing it to happen.

I brainstormed for a bit as to what would make me happy. I even took a spiritually focused marketing course to explore these ideas. Then the idea came to mind: why don’t I sell crystals? You’ve been buying them so you obviously like them, so why not try selling them?

And it’s true, outside of my work life – I had been collecting crystals and stones, since 2012 (when I was at my other adult entertainment job). I had also taken an interest in learning tarot and developing my intuition and was taking classes as a hobby.

So to cure my boredom, I started up a crystal shop in April of 2017. But that just wasn’t enough. Since everybody else had the same idea, I had to figure out a way to stand out from everyone else, so I learned how to be a healer as well.

Since then, I basically created a whole new reality for myself while still working at this job. Going to another job was obviously not the answer, otherwise I would’ve gotten it already and that would’ve been my next path.

My path was for me to shift my perspective and to transform my life with what I already have.

So why don’t I have a professional design portfolio? I just don’t care to have one anymore.

Just know that a lot of the animated gifs I’ve posted here have been used at some point at work. I just tweaked them for my own use.

Like Gary Vee said: happiness is the goal.